Saturday, April 4, 2015

don't you dare look back, just keep your eyes on me

When I blogged about us coming to Arizona, it was hard to talk about all the specifics of picking up our life and plopping it down 900 miles away.  The first thing people would ask when I'd say we were moving was "Oh, so David got a new job?" And the answer was "Um...he quit his old job!"  We had the back-up excuse of being online students with student loans available to us for living expenses, but that didn't feel like a real solution, only a temporary one.  I guess I didn't want to delve into crazy details because of how very irresponsible it made me feel.  This was both an impulse move and it wasn't an impulse move.  We've been wanting to be in Arizona for years, but we decided very quickly that we were tired of wanting and ready to start making it happen...and the making it happen meant taking a few leaps.
I ran out to grab the mail and had the whole gang waiting when I walked back up the driveway
So this is the story of our huge leap of faith, told after the fact so I (hopefully) don't seem insane.

For employment, David found some part-time contracting work to do from home, which we thought would be enough to supplement with student loans for the time being.  He'd applied for some jobs in Arizona, but without direct contacts at most of the places, it was hard to make an Idaho resume get past an initial screening stage and we didn't hear back from anyone right off the bat.  So he took the part-time and we called that good enough to quit his job in Rexburg.  That really set the wheels in motion.

The next step was to rent our townhouse out, because we can't pay rent and a mortgage.  This also didn't happen immediately.  So...we moved anyways.  We just left our house empty and prayed like crazy that the right people would come along before BYUI's April semester.  Making that March mortgage payment was painful.

Maybe now you're getting an idea of just how scary our drive to Arizona felt for me.  Our house wasn't rented, David only had 25 hours of work lined up every week, and I was in the thick of midterms.  And Joony was in the backseat occasionally saying in the saddest voice, "I wanna go home, mom."  I just kept thinking "Is this right? Were we crazy? We were crazy. We're irresponsible idiots."

About one week ago, we hit the one month mark of our time here in Mesa.  In this last week, these things happened:
- I finished up my winter semester with straight As.  I saw those final grades go up and I just burst into tears.  Being in school during a move like this, especially a program that asks for writing on such a personal level, it felt like too much.  That victory was an affirmation to me.
- Our house rented.  We found out someone had turned in an application and we just held our breath for the two days before they signed a lease...but it happened.  Our mortgage will be paid!
- David received a full-time offer that he's so excited about--a job he applied for back in January and didn't think he got.  The interview process started before this last week, of course, but that official offer came in and I don't think we've stopped grinning since.

So in a week David starts his new job and I'll start my third semester and we're thinking that's when it will sink in: we're not on vacation--we live here!  We'll be able to get into a more permanent routine (David working from home has been really hard for both him and Joon), which will feel really good.  In the meantime, it's been a non-stop celebration.  It feels like the good news just keeps rolling in.  Sometimes it's scary when so many things go right.  It's hard not to think that it's too good and it's about to get really bad, because isn't the universe pretty balanced like that?  Either way, we're in a happy fog over here.  We feel so grateful that this move all came together for us and we cannot believe we're building a life in Arizona now.  Arizona!  And I have a CAT! Like I've had one for the last six months or so, but still.  A cat in Arizona! This life.

6 comments:

  1. That picture is the sweetest. :-)This post brought happy tears to my eyes. I (obviously) don't know you except from your blog/twitter/Instagram, but I am still so happy for you. Your bravery is so inspiring to me. I am so glad it seems that it has paid off.

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  2. Your move was incredibly brave and inspiring. I'm so glad things are working out well for your family in Arizona! Congratulations!!!

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  3. This gives me hope! We are praying EVERY DAY that Heath is going to be able to get a new job and really upgrade from where he is now so I can stop working when the baby comes. We took the leap of faith and are prego so this makes me feel like everything is going to fall into place somehow even though it doesn't look like it. :] Thank you! So happy that everything is going well for you!

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  4. This gives me hope! We are praying EVERY DAY that Heath is going to be able to get a new job and really upgrade from where he is now so I can stop working when the baby comes. We took the leap of faith and are prego so this makes me feel like everything is going to fall into place somehow even though it doesn't look like it. :] Thank you! So happy that everything is going well for you!

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  5. We use to be in the Rexburg 8th ward together and I've followed your blog for a while. I'm so glad everything is working out for you guys. We also made the brave leap to Arizona, but for us to Gilbert and it took us 8 months of waiting for things to finally fall into place. If you ever need someone for Joony to play with, someone to reminisce about Rexburg, or a familiar face, let me know.

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    1. Aah, thank you for following along! Out of curiosity, who is this? There isn't a name linked with your blogger profile! We're in Mesa, so we're super close, and we're always up for play dates!

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