Sunday, January 4, 2015
funk you up
I started doing this huge, long survey about 2014 in review, and about 75% through I realized I was just repeating the same things over and over. 2014 was a big year for me. 2013 was lonely and sad--it's taken me a long time to say that without feeling like a huge loser. Our eighteen month move out of Rexburg shook me a lot more than it should have. Right after we left, all of my best friends moved away and I was in a new town and I just felt so sad all the time, and then I felt afraid by how sad I was capable of feeling.
I ended the old year and started the new one on a really negative note. My family all left town after awesome visits, the temperature dropped to -15*, I wrenched my neck, had cramps, and Clark and I were just grumpy with one another. What a bummer. A few days of space have given me some clarity, though (you should have seen the Negative Nancy post in my drafts), so here is what I want to say about the new year now: