Saturday, August 17, 2013

funky


I've been in a funk lately.  A rut, a depression, anxiety, I don't know what you'd call it.  I'm not me.
It's felt like the perfect storm of circumstances--I can't place my finger on any one thing that's messing me up.  Joony is on again, off again with nursing.  My monthly lady times are back after a blessed 2 year hiatus.  It's too dang hot.  I had allergies, which led to a cold, and tapered back off into allergies again.  It's just one of those times in life where my wheel in the sky feels a little bit like it's on a downward turn, but I know for certain it will flip back around and I'll feel like my sunny self again soon.

This scripture verse, this old song, this picture of Joony, David

8 comments:

  1. TWO YEAR HIATUS?? dang, I've never missed any. well, just the pregnant 9 months ones. jealous. sorry about the funk though, totally been there. sucks. :(

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    1. RIGHT?! It's been awesome! Unfortunately I think I forgot how moody it makes me so I've been all melodramatic. "I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY AGAIN! MY LIFE IS IN RUINS!"

      And then I chill out a few minutes later and I'm like, "Hmm, pizza..."

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  2. it's your period. the hormones are adjusting again. WENT THROUGH THE SAME SHIT. you'll be back to your normal self in no time!! xo

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    1. THANK YOUUU L! Maybe you should come visit me just to be sure I cheer up? Maybe?

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  3. I was having a conversation with my aunt about such funks recently. Praying for peace and comfort in your heart.

    XXOO,
    V

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    1. Sweetest comment in the world! Thanks, friend.

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    2. I've been thinking about the comment I left,wondering if it was enough. It's funny how us readers feel so close to the bloggers and just want to offer up advice/kind words whenever we can.

      My aunt, a wonderful and Godly woman, chalked up "the funk" to simply being a Woman's curse. We deal with menstrual cycles, hormone changes, post partum depression, trying to be a wife, a mom, a sister,a friend. It is hard. And then there are expectations. From husbands, people, even our own in worrying we aren't all we can be for our children or in relationships or even business. Maybe "the funk" is from the stress of all of that, and the weight that we don't even realize we carry. What you have to realize is that you are ENOUGH. On your worst days, on your best ones. Your husband loves you, your son loves you, your friends and family do, and even the readers! It is easy to feel down when we fall or feel like we fail, but God graces us with another day to love wholly and do better. Through all of our funks and phases, we are still enough for Him. How wonderful! To know that sometimes we fail but He loves us yet, He loves us still! Praise be for a love that strong, that renews us and restores us!

      Sorry, I took that comment and ran with it, and maybe you don't need it. Maybe you do. Have a peaceful evening, B.

      XXOO,
      V

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    3. Varissa, this is hands-down one of the best comments I've seen on any blog ever. Thank you so much for coming back and for being so kind. aren't conversations with good women the best? I'm so happy you and you aunt had such an uplifting one! I don't know why it's so much easier to focus on the stressful/negative things in life, especially when there is so much MORE good. Anyways, thank you thank you thank you. I will come back a re-read this comment whenever I need a little lift :)

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